Disappointment

16Jul10

My kids were home from day camp yesterday, due to overexposure to the sun the day before, so hubby and I decided to take them to the movies.  I jumped in the shower (I was so thrilled – I couldn’t even take a simple bath on my own two months ago) but halfway through, I just started feeling overwhelmed.  The thought of getting dressed, getting out, sitting through a whole movie and staying awake just seemed too daunting.  I started to cry.  I was so frustrated.  Naturally, my husband came running (we very rarely have solo shower time in our house – the kids waltz in and out of that bathroom like they own the place, so I was busted.)  I ended up lying down to see if a quick nap would help, and once again, slept away the afternoon. 

Today I woke up early and was going to go shopping with my hubby, but just couldn’t get going.  I was in a total physical and mental fog all day.  I managed to squeeze in 10 minutes of slow Wii Fit exercise, but I barely worked up a sweat.  I dragged myself back to bed.  I had so many things I wanted to do today, but I spent the day reading magazines and watching TV.  I just couldn’t motivate myself up for anything more.  I finally fell asleep for a three hour nap around mid afternoon again.  I wonder if it’s still the Botox, or if my body is begging for rest to repair itself.  I guess we’ll really see next week.  If this is continuing on to next week, I’ll start to worry, and maybe just push myself through it (although I’m due to visit my doc anyway, I may mention it).  It’s really disappointing, I was enjoying having a bit more energy – I was able to go for about 2 or 3 hours before needing that rest, and 1 or 2 busy days before needing that rest day.  My usual schedule was one day on and then one day off – One day to do things and one day to rest.   I do have a history of pushing myself too hard, so maybe it’s no surprise that I’m expecting a bit too much once again.  I’m so afraid of being lazy I’ll do anything to avoid it.

Be well.

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